12 days..

only 12 days left...

OMG.. i cant wait for this to finish..

I am mentally and emotionally exhausted..

Dear Allah.. give me strength..

Things in Life

There are things in life that we just can't control.. But no matter how difficult life may get, always believe that there is a positive side to it..a silver lining.. Life would not be prefect if it was perfect..
U need to spice it up a bit.. make mistakes..have fun..be adventurous.. love..hate.. all of these are ingredients to live.. some of the ingredients..

A life that is filled with sweet nothings is not a life at all..No matter how hard life hits u.. just have hope, have faith that everything will b alrite.. there is always a solution to every problem.. and patience is always a virtue.

ok.. i'm done rambling for today..

A few weeks left..

Time flies by pretty fast when you least notice it..

I started this blog at the early weeks of my placement in HUKM. Hoping that it would help me in distressing myself in case i started to feel the same stress level that i endured during my second placement.. I'm happy to report that my level of stress is no where near as high as my previous infamous record.. Not that i dont feel any stress.its just i guess the environment isnt so stressful..
Alhamdulillah..

But regardless of that.. I am still struggling to finish my thesis, 3 protocols, 7 assessment reports and see 25 clients.. WOW..

and nearing the end.. u just feel that ur running out of time and yet u tend to waste more time.. how is that even possible when i practically sleep with my laptop beside me? dunno..the words just dont flow.. and i end up writing and deleting my work.. perfectionist .. as arfah wud coin it..
how can i not be? to create a work that is semi-good is an insult.. dont u think? hehe..

well.. with only 5 weeks left in my placement.. i just cant wait to settle everything and move on..
after this is work3..

future plans:

1. continue editing my thesis
2. finsih at least one protocol
3. finish 3 protocols by the end of the month
4. submit everything at least by 2nd week of april
5. editing it until there are nothing else to edit.
6. go out with the girls to chillis...
7. chilling...
   

Sick day ..

Here i am sitting alone in my room.. well not actually sitting.. I'm rolling around and trying to soothe my tummy coz its hurting too much. I woke up this morning with a pain in my belly.. Gastric! Ugh.. no!! And i had clients to see today. My body was aching and I had a wardrobe malfunction. It was one of those days when u woke up on the wrong side of the bed.

What was sweet was that i went to the clinic & the doc gave me a one day MC. Yeay! I can rest at home rather than go to the office and sit prettily. But do i rest at home? No.. I find myself addicted to the secrets of the internet world. About 2 hours ago, i was working on my thesis (which is I tell u, no where near finish). Then i find myself searching for online clothes and earrings and hair accessories.. haha.. I have officially turned into an online shopping addict. Keep constantly reminding myself that this month i have a very tigh budget.. After browsing, i continued with my work and tried to write a sentence or two for the module i'm working on.. i managed to put two sentences and then started to doze off.

Sounds like a very productive morning rite? Tehee...

My tummy has not yet settled down but its not that painful anymore.. Mayb i shud roll on the bed somore.. hehe.. and read my novels again.. haha.. or i cud read my adult clinical psychology book and fight off the sleepiness.

Although having tummy aches, amazingly i have this craving for nandos and baskin robbins.. haha ... do u think it cud b the antidote to my problems? I hope so... :)

This and That

So today was the first day of work after a 4 days break.. I believe everybody was still on holiday mood. A lot of lazying around and gossiping.. but today felt different without the girls. I was alone and had been put to test by my supervisor. Sometimes u just have that anxiety when u know u've been put on the spot and can't come up with a fluent response (i've been told that's a typical response when ur supervisor is questioning u, tongue-tied). U know the answers but just at that particular time.. u just had a temporary amnesia. hehe.. its not a good habit.. but the good thing out of it is.. being anxious about ur supervisor shooting u with tons of questions is that, u'll be more prepared. Prepared for the next round of bullets.. Just have to have thick skin when she questions or ridicules u in public. So far, she's been great. Nothing like what i've heard. Hey, but its still too early to tell. I still have roughly 12 more weeks to go before i finish my placement.

Things that i promised myself to do tonite (since there will be a q&a session with my supervisor 2morow):

1. Read up on brain injury...
2. Find materials regarding adult mental retardation
3. Prepare myself to meet quasimodo..the drama queen..
4. Breathe...

Hopefully, i will get all of this done tonite..

Panic Attacks

Someone told me today that being panic is a normal state and that everyone in this world would endure. Little that the person know, that they are many types of panic and it varies in terms of intensity. Some people may feel slightly panic at times, while some people may have an intense panic moment that may last more than 10 minutes and has symptoms such as breathing problem and sweating. Some people are claustrophobic and try as they might to avoid crowded areas and close spaces. Different people would have different triggers or reactions to a situation that would cause them to panic.

So what is a panic attack?

A panic attack is when an individual faces a period of intense fear or discomfort in the absence of real danger that develops abruptly and would usually last within 10 minutes (DSM-IV-TR). It is also accompanied by four or more of the following symptoms:

1. Palpitations
2. Sweating
3. Trembling
4. Shortness of breath
5. Feeling of choking
6. Chest pain or discomfort
7. Feeling dizzy
8. Derealization
9. Fear of losing control
10. Fear of dying
11. Parasthesias
12. Chills or hot flushes

Treatments that are usually prescribed for those with panic attacks are medication and also psychotherapy (i.e breathing techniques & Cognitive-Behavioral Therapy). Although some people take panic lightly, one must be aware of the intensity of each panic episode and the symptoms that they have for each episode. If a panic episode or attack is not addressed and left untreated, the panic attack may be recurrent and become more chronic.

The First for Everything

Finally.. i posted my first entry.. Yeay!

A year ago a friend dared me to start my own blog. For the fun of it she says.. It was the coolest thing at the moment among my friends.. but i was too lazy to do so. Keeping up with so many things like Friendster, Facebook and all the other cool site available took most of my net surfing time. I was in my final semester back then.. didnt really have that much time to spare..

So.. sekarang ni since i seem to be using my lappie 24 hours a day.. and my nature of work seems to be quite demanding (who's isnt?)..i found myself wanting to write my heart out..

So..lets see if i can spare at least a few minutes of the day to just destress..

p/s: to my dear friend.. sorry it took me so long to blog. hey, at least i did it! Better late than never :)